Self Love

This is the longest I have ever been single, and the most committed to myself I have ever been. I have had the pleasure of dating myself the last two years and falling in love with myself.

In the beginning of my self love journey I resented being alone. I struggled with my self worth and had no depth to my relationship with myself. In the past, I was codependent and jumped from relationship to relationship. I let myself get lost in lust and caught up in the desire of feeling desired. I never realized that if it wasn’t for my sacred solitude I would not have the ability to share my essence of life with others.

The greatest lesson I have learned through my dating experience is that true love is selfless and comes from a place of service, and what you can do for the other person to enrich their life. This is how you know the right people are in your life, when your focus is on how you can be of service to them, not what they can do for you. I now know that the more I pursue myself the more I am learning how I can be a better human, sister, daughter, friend, companion, and lover.

You have to realize that you are not lacking anything by being alone, and when you do meet someone it will come from a place of abundance, service, love, and respect. Not from a place of expectations, neediness, or “not enough”.

You are whole just as you are. You are not half of any heart, but you have a whole heart that you can love others with.

I still stray from my path at times, I make mistakes, I can be selfish, I sometimes feel unworthy, and an entire rollercoaster of emotions. This is when I read my journal, and I am captivated by who I have grown to be all over again. When I read my words I fall in love with who I am; the brilliance of my mind, the abundance of love in my heart, and my desire to grow.

If you are struggling with loneliness please know that this time is so precious to cultivate your inner world, please notice the flecks of gold that are sprinkled around you every day, please know that by loving yourself first and foremost you can better love those around you.

Love + light,
Xx Jordan