the purpose of pain
what if i told you your pain had purpose
what if i told you the experiences that engulfed me in darkness are what helped me see the light
what if i told you about the time…
when i experienced the high of love and the low of loss
when i picked myself apart to fit an image i learned from the media is beautiful
when i was told “be quiet” or “stop being too much”
when i thought my value was found in the validation of others
when they would talk over me or ignore what i said
when my career identity shifted from cosmetologist to health coach
when i repeated toxic cycles and patterns again and again
when i poured my heart it to friends who never saw me
when i said yes to everyone to keep the peace even when i lost mine
If you can empathize with me, then I can empathize with you
these experiences were painful - the pain was a gift I did not yet have the awareness to see clearly - now i know this pain, frustration, guilt, dis-ease, were all symptoms of not living in alignment.
and now that I can see and feel clearly i know the TRUTH…
that the only beauty standard that matters is measured by my heart
that the love i felt was a reflection of me and could never be lost
that other people’s perception of “too much” comes from their own insecurities that they see in my light
that my value is innate - i am worthy not “because” of anything - I just am
that advocating for my voice and letting myself be seen is my responsibility
that i must follow my passion and let joy be my vessel for creativity
that each connection is either a lesson or a blessing and i could never miss my soul mates
that setting boundaries to protect my peace is the greatest act of love
my healing process has been extremely colorful - full of intense messy emotions and the most beautiful revelations. i have learned through feeling the contrast i can better understand myself. I alchemize my energy by leaning into the spectrum of my emotions. I transmute the pain of the past through this expression.
that is my passion. that is my art. that is my truth. that is my healing.
What if I told you it all started with a tiny seed of awareness?
What if I told you I just planted that tiny seed within you?